My body broke out in rashes suddenly over Sunday night, and they are spreading and looking redder and angrier by the day.

Doc 1 said that it could be chicken pox, but it didn’t blister so that was ruled out.

Doc 2 said it was probably some sort of immune system response to a virus.

I also found out that my resting heart rate is incredibly high at 105. Sigh. I feel so sorry that I have been letting myself get stressed out and not prioritising my emotional well-being.

I thought that as long as I loved my work it wasn’t counted as stress. I guess I can still overwork myself even when it’s something I enjoy.

I’ve got to be more careful from now if I want to see Lorraine get married (if she does). Yes I’m the morbid sort.

Sigh. I hope the rashes subside soon. I really need to start exercising.

Planting herbs

This is my little planter stand outside the office. Something I’ve always wanted to do but never had the energy / space / motivation for.

The corridor outside the office happens to be bright, airy and spacious!

Today I tried to prune the mint and basil and I’m hoping I did not fatally injure them. I’ve just always been on the sidelines looking at other people do things to plants (and subsequently kill them) so I have no idea what I’m really doing.

But perhaps will discover the hidden plant prodigy in me.

Hey the cacti have been alive for 4 months and counting now. At least there’s that I suppose. ✌🏻

Bye 2017, Hello 2018

2017 was a year of changes.

Lorraine started going to school, after a few weeks of tears and falling sick, grew to love her teachers and friends.

We got a helper, fired her, and got a new one.

I started working full time after taking care of Lorraine 24/7 for 19 months. I rented an office near home for my business.

It passed in another whirlwind, and Lorraine is now 2 😒.


I’ve never been the new year resolution type, but somehow this year I feel like joining in the fun.

Health – I hope to fall sick less often, and feel more energetic.

  • Eat healthy home cooked meals.
  • Flu shots.
  • Seven minute workout daily.

Family – I hope to spend quality time together with Keith & Lorraine, making memories that we will look back fondly on in the decades to come.

  • Plan weekly activities.
  • Allocate weekday time to spend with Lorraine.

Work – I hope I can finally make my business a business (as opposed to a glorified job), one that doesn’t become crippled once I am not around.

  • Hire employee for ops.
  • Rent out spare bedroom.

Toddlers are boring

It turns out that in order for my activity plans to work, other than Lorraine being interested the activity, *I* also need to be genuinely having fun. Else it just doesn’t work.

I had grand plans of painting rocks, exploring numbers, but just typing them brings a yawn.

And her idea of play nowadays consists of bringing our pumpkin balloon to me and saying it’s a monster. I have to pretend to be scared and run away from it. For about 50 times.

Is ok.

I just need to plan things that I personally enjoy too.

I’ll find them!

How loved am I?

Lorraine is eating her favourite supper snack of peanut butter bread. 

She was left with a tiny last piece and passed it to me. 

Me: Lorraine you don’t want the bread anymore? 

Lorraine: I luv u mummy hehehe.

Me: 😭

How is she so sweet. 😭

Canvas shoe painting

Lorraine received a pair of white canvas shoes from our lovely neighbour a year ago and can finally fit into them!

Decided to spruce up her kicks a little bit by painting them pink and silver! 

Items required:

  • White canvas shoes
  • Masking tape / painters tape to tape over parts that you don’t want to be painted
  • Acrylic paint
  • Paint sponges and/or brushes
  • Sealant to make shoes waterproof

Clay modelling

Lorraine received some modelling clay for her 2nd birthday and we had some fun with it this afternoon! 

I actually had no idea how to do anything with the clay but luckily, there was google to the rescue!

Found a super easy caterpillar to make. I fastened mine with a toothpick since the clay just would not stick, even when I scored and wet it πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈ. 

Next round I’ll buy some copper wires that are thin and can be bent!   

Items needed:

  • Modelling clay in various colours
  • That’s all! 

Stencil sponge painting

Today we tried the first of (hopefully) many fun activities, sponge stencil painting!

A nice, low-cost, fun activity that can be done indoors or outdoors, and exposes toddlers to art, alphabets, colours and textures! πŸ‘πŸ»

Items required:

  • Water based paint (anything rinses off with water because toddlers)
  • A plate of sorts to squeeze paint on
  • Thick paper that does not get soggy when painted on (recommended: watercolour paper)
  • Sponge(s)
  • Stencils (crafty mamas can create your own with a Silhouette Cameo, or just buy a cheap pre-cut stencil for $2 from Daiso if you’re lazy like me πŸ˜…)
  • 1 x toddler

She ended up creating abstract art and ignored me when I tried to point out the alphabets, but she totally loved it!

Challenge accepted

A recent conversation, while unpleasant, made me think about whether I am doing enough with Lorraine.

I spent 24 hours a day, 7 days a week with her for the first 19 months of her life, but with the arrival of our amazing helper this July, I seem to have swung too far to the other end of the spectrum.

I threw myself into work, for 6 days a week. I still come home for lunch every day, and spend the evening with her, which is more than the time many full-time moms have, but it’s not quite the life I had envisioned.

I guess bonding and connecting, and creating a magical childhood full of precious memories, doesn’t quite happen by chance or coincidence. I guess it requires planning.

And so, plan, I shall. Of all the things I don’t quite excel at, I think I do pretty ok planning things. *looks at 3 page excel spreadsheet for housework schedule*

I planned a lot as a teenager but could never execute my numerous and extensive plans. I lose steam once the planning part ends and the doing part begins. I think 2 years of motherhood has ninja trained me. I can now adult and follow through with my plans pretty well, ha. We’ll finally see if my planning skills are any good at all.

History 101

^ Above we have an educational and informative display of a toddler performing CPR on a cat.

Fun fact: This domain wenderella.com is 10 years old. I registered it in 2007 (!), back when I was young and wenderelley, thinking wow an internet diary! That’s cOoL. Back then typing in alternate caps was cOoL.

I blogged about what I ate, what I wore, what I felt, everything, as a 20 year old does. Cringe-worthily, as a 20 year old does, for a few years (!), and then one day I accidentally deleted the entire site. Because I checked a box that I shouldn’t have, when I was trying to upgrade something on the site.

Surprisingly, I pretty much shrugged my shoulders and moved on. And a little while later, I restarted the site when I felt like writing again… and I did it again. Can you believe it. I deleted the site accidentally, again.

And then it happened a third time (good god what’s wrong with me).

… and a fourth. I know, I know.

So. If you ask me honestly, I have no clue when when this site will disappear due to the sheer magnitude of my stupidity and how it amazingly keeps on happening.

But each time I restart I feel an unjustified sense of optimism, that this time I will finally be not stupid. We’ll see.