I sometimes feel like I’m talking to someone who doesn’t want to talk to me at all. Sure, he seems normal and human and civil, but it’s not like he can just ask me to scoot and shut up.

I feel like he’s talking to me because he’s obliged to entertain me, when in actuality, his mind is probably going, “Gawd, is she ever going to stop talking? Just leave me alone already!“

I can’t tell when he wants to talk to me anymore- an active want, not a “yeah uhhh I’ll talk to you” kind of have-also-can, don’t-have-also-nevermind thing.

I notice how happy he sounds when he talks to other people, and I try to tell myself that he’s just being friendly, but sometimes I wonder where that note of excitedness has disappeared to in our conversations.